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Sky Full of Stars

I just spent an entire hour dancing alone in the hall with the lights switched off and the curtains drawn. 
Came back after this afternoon's paper and fell flat on the bed.
Couldn't sleep so I took my diary and walked up to the pool. Sat at the clubhouse and poured my heart out on those yellow pages while listening to some songs.
Walked back to my apartment and fell flat on the bed again.
Couldn't fall asleep.
Again.
Turned up the volume on my MP3 and walked 20 paces from my room to the hall. Laughed at myself for thinking about dancing alone.
Started moving a little bit and next thing I know I'm lifting my hands, moving my legs, flying round the hall and dancing like there's no tomorrow with tears streaming down my face.
I'm so overwhelmed by everything that's been happening lately.
So damn overwhelmed it's insane.
And then there's all this exam stress that's just begging to be released.
I don't know how I got through these past 10 days. I really don't. Papers everyday with no breaks in between except for the weekend plus practicals. I'm so sleep deprived and I haven't been eating properly because I've been so caught up with my notes and everything. For the first time in all my years of sitting for exams I actually woke up in the middle of the night to study for the next day's papers. 
I just don't know how I did it.
Brain drain, seriously.
I really need to go out.
I desperately need to go out with someone, have a drink and just enjoy some good company.
Can't wait to be back home.

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