Burnout

These past 2 weeks have been somewhat...weird for me, to say the least.

Have been feeling really down.

Last weeks crazy shit schedule, I think, is still taking its toll on me.

I'm completely exhausted.

All I want is a day or two to rest and recuperate before I continue.

There's this voice at the back of my head saying I can't go on like this.

It's like I want so much to quit what I'm doing and move on to something else. Something that'll let me have a life.

But of course that's not an option. 

Quitting is never an option but sometimes I can't help but to think about it, ya know?

Medicine is all I've ever wanted to do, aside from journalism for a short period of time when I was doing my A Levels. 

Whatever it is, though, I can't see myself doing anything else.

Recently I've been thinking about being an air hostess lol. Traveling the world, seeing places, meeting people. 

Travel. Because I adore it.

But for how long will I adore being in different parts of the world every couple of days? It'll be a temporary high.
I think medical school was designed to break us in such a way that we eventually learn how to fix ourselves up again through other people.

So many thoughts running through my head.

Can't seem to turn all these channels off.

Things I want, I cannot have.

People I want, I cannot have.

It's frustrating.

So frustrating.

But that's life, isn't it?