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12.12.12


These past two weeks or so have been so crazy.
First the car. Then the lighting at home. Then the laptop.
Money's going out faster than water it's so frustrating.
Laptop screen's been giving me some trouble for some months now. Two days back I couldn't open my files, documents, Skype, media player wasn't working and bla bla blah and I had to get it repaired coz all my study notes are in power point files.

So yesterday evening around five thirty I went over to Danga City Mall (in the pouring bloody rain. I don't understand why people use their hazard lights when it rains. Why? Why hazard lights? Just turn on your damn lights you don't need your hazard lights!) in the hope of getting it fixed. Found a reputable comp shop, told them the problem and apparently there was a virus and the laptop had to be reformatted. Left it with them after telling them over and over to back up ALL my stuff and to call me as soon as they could possibly get it done. Went back again today to collect it and it's as good as new now. 
Bought back Subway and Chatime for dinner. 

All I want to do is curl up under my comforter and sleep. So damn sleep deprived. I think we all are.
Still looking for an electrician who's actually free to come over and see to things.
Need to send the curtains in for a wash. Need to get the car serviced. I think by next week that'll be sorted. Then I'll have to clean up the place before I leave.
Lol it's so difficult having to juggle studies, exams, cooking, cleaning and maintenance of the apartment and the car all at one go. There's always something I have to see to, something that needs fixing or cleaning or doing.
I'm just really so very tired.
A friend of mine shared a link to a Bible Study site today. It was about forgiveness coz I'd recently put up a status about it.
And it really got me thinking.
I haven't really forgiven the people who've hurt me in my past.
The post I read, it said the whole concept of forgiving is to let go of what was and embrace what is. And by forgiving, by letting it all go, you eventually forget it ever happened. The fact that you still remember what happened to you all those weeks or months or years ago goes to show that you haven't forgiven the people involved in your past. 
And it's true.
Every time I think about what happened I get so angry. Every time I see them, I remember what happened all those months ago and I manifest hatred. Hatred and anger. All because I haven't forgotten. I haven't forgiven.
Three people.
I need to work my way around forgiving them even if they're not sorry.
That's what it says in Mark 11:25 anyway.
That's what got me thinking this morning.
Just three people...

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