Skip to main content

Rebound


Sixty eight days into medical school already.
Still feels so surreal somehow.
The past month off Blogger has been a breath of fresh air.
Really wanted to be without my blog, period. But I felt like something was missing. I missed expressing myself through words.
Writing.
My writing.
That's what was missing.
It's been a part of me ever since I can remember.
I had my first diary when I was eleven and I haven't stopped writing since.
Events. Feelings. Birthdays. Experiences. Firsts. Lasts. Best friends. Family. Loves. Losses. I used to write everything down. Every happy moment, every sad moment, every little thing that happened I wrote down and then SNAP! one day I just stopped. I stopped because something in me simply didn't want to continue anymore. Something in me just became so numb.
But things change. Feelings change.
And here I am again.
You learn a lot of things as you grow up. You learn a lot of things when you meet different people. You learn how strong you are. You learn to come back to your priorities. You learn to distance yourself from all that is negative and pull closer the people who lift you up, the people who accept you for who you are, for who you have become. You learn to pay attention to your conscience. You learn not to fall for words but to fall instead for actions. You learn how important family actually is. You learn that you can be friendly with everyone but not everyone will be your friend. You learn about backstabbers and back biters, liars and cheaters. You learn about what it means to love with your whole heart. You learn how to keep promises and stay in touch. You just learn.
You learn and you learn and you learn and it never ceases, it never ends.
Everything I've been through over these many months has taught me something. And I'm still learning.
It's not the number of years that defines how mature you are. It's the experiences you go through.
Don't let the world harden your heart. Forgive quickly though you may never forget. Surround yourself with the people who stay true to you even when you're not around.
And come what may, never, ever lose your faith.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

To Date

Very happy to say that I've settled nicely into the new place. Everything's set up and unpacked and it finally feels like home. Everyone's very friendly here. So helpful. Traffic isn't that bad. Places are close by. We get everything we need. The only downside is that there's no cinema here. Which means I'll be traveling up north frequently now and I can't wait. This semester doesn't exactly seem like a particularly busy one so am really looking forward to some traveling.  Just finished watching Northanger Abbey. Was checking my hair with the phone's front cam and one thing led to another and I took about twelve selfies just like that. Heh. I tell you the things I do when I'm alone. Completely hooked on Downton Abbey. Finished season four and half of season three yesterday. Can't wait for season five to start. Also waiting for season eleven of Grey's Anatomy.  I  have unlimited WiFi. No more quota nonsense so have been ca...
Post a Comment
Read more

To Date.

I've recently been nominated for the Liebster Blog Award thanks to a friend of mine I've only known via Facebook for some years now. The blog post for that is still being drafted. I've been posed some pretty tricky questions /;) Haven't been blogging as frequently as I used to coz I didn't bring my laptop back home this time round. Didn't think I'd have much use for it. Things have been a little...crazy here to say the least. I'm actually twenty-one now. Though I must say, the word 'freedom' was never synonymous with this age. All I ever related to this milestone was responsibility. Funny. It's been such a rollercoaster ride of emotions. I could never completely describe it. I've been thinking about how I've celebrated my birthdays all these years. Two birthdays I celebrated away from home. My eighteenth, which was in the UK with Aunty M and Uncle T, and my twentieth, which was in Johor with my classmates and a once...
2 comments
Read more

It's Dr., Now!

It's been 10 days since my final professional exam & announcement of my results. I'm a doctor. & though I've been studying my entire life to reach this stage it still feels so surreal. It still feels like I need to head back south to continue with classes. Like I'm still on some semester break that is going to come to an end. Every so often throughout my day it hits me; I don't have to study anymore - for now at least. But then this though gets clouded over by other things & I forget. I have to constantly keep reminding myself that I've made it. I've actually, finally made it this far. As daunting as this whole new chapter - that's about to begin - is, part of me is excited to start. I'm excited to see where my future takes me, not only in which field of medicine I decide to pursue but also to which place. Big cities are out of the question for me. I realized, over the past couple of days, that since I've left th...
Post a Comment
Read more