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Crossroads

You know it's true when they say it's good to go for long walks with some good music playing in your ears to clear your head.
Things seem to be all over the place right now and I don't know how to fix anything or even if things need to be fixed in the first place.
So many thoughts jumbled up in my head.
All these dreams I had about what my future would hold and how I'd somehow get through all these never ending hurdles.
I'm trying to sort it all out one by one but it's exhausting and it just drains you, ya know?
You think you know what you want for the rest of your life and there you are still growing, still learning, wanting new things as days go by.
Went for an hour long brisk walk around the apartment.

So hooked to Sam Smith's Stay With Me. 
Took the stairs up to the 20th floor, totally drenched and was rewarded with such a beautiful view. Blue skies, grey clouds, lightning coming in from the distance. Sounds dark and emo I know but it was amazing (and no I'm not emo fyi).

I just need a minute to compose myself I guess.
I just need a minute to remind myself where I am, what I'm doing and that it's all gonna work out somehow by God's grace.
Breathe in, breathe out, Sha.
Breathe in, breathe out.

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