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Eleven months ago I was about 20% suicidal. A lot has happened since then. Graduated just three days ago. It was really very emotional for me because I never really thought I'd make it this far. I'm actually a doctor now can you believe it? Many years ago I wrote something about myself that I felt made perfect sense. & it really has this past year; "If anyone were to fall for me, I daresay it wouldn't be for my looks, but rather the way they get to be themselves when they're with me." I have learnt so many things this year. A lot more than I have in a while. I've learnt not to judge anyone solely on the way they look, because even the ones most displeasing to the eyes have qualities about them which you cannot help but to love and admire. If anything, or if something is meant for you, you will have it somehow. You may have to walk through hell and back to get it, but it will be yours for the taking if that's what God has decided...

My heart cries tonight. After so many years of being alone. Tonight is the first night it feels so lonely.

Dubai was actually a layover. Since I have friends there I decided to spend a few days with them before flying out to London.  I took Emirates to and from Dubai & the UK & it was great. The unlimited wine was a major plus :P Only spent about 3 days in Dubai so I saw only a few of the major must-see spots.  My friend picked me up from the airport & we went to her place first. It was about 20 minutes away. More depending on traffic. Roads are very broad and each side has 6 lanes with a minimum of 3 on average. You see a lot of SUVs there. There's a lot of American influence. The UAE doesn't have their own national car.  It felt a lot like being in KL at first. Only after a while I started taking in the difference. Plenty of skyscrapers everywhere. But unlike KL, buildings here are built much closer together. & there is a LOT of development going on, still.  After washing up at home, we headed out to the Burj. The entrance is within th...

So! I have to admit it's been a really long while since my last entry. I was working on my food blog, briefly. Then in between life happened & I haven't updated it yet but fret not! I will soon. I just got back from my trip overseas & since I took plenty of pictures I thought I'd share them & blog about the places I visited. Will be starting with Dubai. Then Germany. Then London/UK. Watch this space :)

It's been 10 days since my final professional exam & announcement of my results. I'm a doctor. & though I've been studying my entire life to reach this stage it still feels so surreal. It still feels like I need to head back south to continue with classes. Like I'm still on some semester break that is going to come to an end. Every so often throughout my day it hits me; I don't have to study anymore - for now at least. But then this though gets clouded over by other things & I forget. I have to constantly keep reminding myself that I've made it. I've actually, finally made it this far. As daunting as this whole new chapter - that's about to begin - is, part of me is excited to start. I'm excited to see where my future takes me, not only in which field of medicine I decide to pursue but also to which place. Big cities are out of the question for me. I realized, over the past couple of days, that since I've left th...

Met up with V again yesterday after about 7 months. We walked around town, went to The Happy 8 Cafe for lunch (which was thoroughly disappointing), Plan b for dessert (which picked us up a little) and to a Trick Art Museum. Here are the shots! As we entered enter The Happy 8. Flowers and greens all around this little place. Behind the cafe.  Behing Plan b. The popcorn was a bit much but the brownie deserves brownie points. The watermelon and lychee smoothie was yum!  This was at the Trick Art Museum. I think we took more pictures yesterday than we have throughout our 7 years of being friends xD

Part of me finds it very sad that my own parents don't know the kind of person they have brought up and raised. They see me as someone who is very selfish, dominating, as someone who bullies her sister, arrogant, impatient, unkind, not bothered, irresponsible. Someone who just doesn't care or give a damn. In my mind these past few years, a majority of my thoughts have been revolving around how I will be helping my parents out financially once I start earning. I might not earn much in the beginning. But I already know that chunks of my pay will be going towards my sister's monthly allowance as she will be in college by the time I start working, and also towards my parents, to settle off whatever bills they have. The rest of what I earn will be used for my other necessities and savings, etc. I never tell them this because I feel it is my responsibility as the eldest to do my part in this family. And when the time comes they will see what I'm doing. There's no ...

Spent a weekend in Penang basically just eating and taking pictures. We had so, so much to eat. I don't think I'll forget the amazing rojak we had. Can't wait to go back for more. Small little appams filled with either corn or banana. This lot was all mine :D Taken at the Chew Jetty. Fried egg with oysters At Straits Quay Really good brioche from the Four Seasons bakery at Straits Quay. Then for 3 days straight I was out with the girls and we just kept eating.  Strawberry crispy butter bread. So, so yummy. We were kinda blown away by it because we really didn't know what to expect. The chocolate sauce we drizzled over it was just wonderful. Finally got to try mango sticky rice! If I make this myself I might just drown everything in coconut milk. Thai green tea curry. Still thinking about this but I've had enough to last 'till the end of the year I think. Went to Daily Fix in Malacca for this big breakfast. And th...