Early Morning Musings

It's just after 4 in the morning.

I've been going days without proper sleep. Weeks, even. 

I either fall asleep and wake up around 3 in the morning or don't sleep at all, just toss and turn all night.

Back home again for my semester break and even with my meds I'm so wide awake.

The past few weeks and months have gone by really fast. I'm finally done with my 7th semester. Another 3 more to go until I'm done with this whole course. It's exciting but at the same time also really daunting.

Things have been going well otherwise.

Finally getting into the whole make-up thing. My mission these next 2 weeks is to learn how to do those winged eyeliner thingys so that for the annual dinner next month I'll be able to do it for myself instead of having my friends do it for me. Fingers crossed. 

Was trying to find this song I heard on the radio the other day but can't seem to remember the lyrics. 

So many things going on in my head but I can't seem to put them into words.

So many things.

I find it so difficult to wear my heart on a sleeve. I feel so much, sometimes too much all at once but I have a really hard time showing it.

I am in constant need of reassurance. I need to know how other people feel about things before I let my guard down and reciprocate. 

It's so confusing sometimes. 

"Teach my to feel again, in all the ways that I've forgotten."